This was not a moment to behold. I was bewildered. I was feeling like a ticking time bomb. The explosion was about to happen anytime…. I was one moment tossing…. Another moment Pacing….another moment almost kicking my feet in the air.
Rambling thoughts. Emotions. Pain…..
I got misty eyed….no…scratch misty eyes..I was almost wailing…
That night I could do anything to ease the pain I was in. I took a shower..I had green tea(don’t ask)…I took a high dose of painkillers…my son kissed my cheek..my brother played me soft rock…since my mom was home, she massaged ointment on my cheek…and also Iced my swollen cheek. I was looking like I had just come from a boxing match and had lost( knockout)…LOL…. .NOTHING….NOTHING was working… I totally blame the devil!!
Somehow all these remedies decided to collaborate with each other and sleep came.
“Weeping may endure for the night….but Joy comes in the morning..” True. True. True. I now properly get the meaning of that statement. I looked at myself in the morning and started laughing. And the funniest thing is that when I looked outside, the sun coming out was the most beautiful sight…let’s just say an Aha moment…a sight to behold…..
It made me think of the saying,.. that there’s always sunshine after the storm…hahaha!!
Now that my stormy night was in the past, I focused on my morning and it’s beauty with my Cheek swollen and pain free,I could afford positive vibes.
It got me thinking how in life we tend to focus on the pain forgetting that it’s always preparing us and shaping us to welcome the warmth and beauty of life. For we can not have everything that easy. That if we endure pain, as long as we are willing to go through with it….we emerge strong and victorious.
The toothache in your life will only last during the night. A bright morning is coming. Hang in there buddy!!!
Honey ( a MUST have)
Blue Band Margarine or Butter…
These are kids favorite all-time-spreads. Moms in the house will agree with me.
On One extremely Hot Saturday afternoon am doing some minor grocery shopping and as am in the dairy section picking some yoghurt, I see some “all natural Cheese’ Spread..,I get so excited because we love Sunday sandwiches and this was looking like a very good plan…..”yay”… I had my son in mind when I went ahead and purchased it. It was my most yay purchase that day. LOL…
So I get home and it’s the first thing I show him as I was unpacking. He is a very thankful boy. He hugs me and says all the thank you’s and hugs as I expected.
Following day…I make home made patties and use this spread and ketchup…and since he loooooves this meal am so happy..esp because the spread seems to be loved( I was 50/50…maybe the ketchup masked some taste now that I think of it)…mmmmh!
We go ahead with our usual day to day routine. One evening, he tells me he wants a sandwich. So I tell him I will use the cheese spread. Then he said, “mommy, that ‘thing’ is not so tasty…sorry but I don’t want it, it has a funny taste…!” LOL.
I hid my laughter and shock at the same time. Hid my laughter because the honesty was epic and shocked because he did not even try sugarcoat it. LOL
Kids- gotta love em!!
My point in this is HONESTY!!
I really appreciated it. Sometimes we really avoid being told things as they are. We hide and mask situations to avoid being hurt or hurting people.
Or you get to a point when it doesn’t matter at all. As much as it really does…
As they say, “kill them with the truth!”
Let’s be candid…
Am I fat in this dress?
Do these jeans make my butt big?
Do you like the meal I made?
Do my eyebrows give me a surprised look?
Do I have Kale on my teeth?
To be honest, first thing is you always have to trust your gut feeling and have self belief. Secondly, if they hesitate in answering then yeah that dress has added you some inches honey!! But if you feel good go ahead and rock it,,..!!
Don’t comfort people with lies. Tell it as it is so we can move on…
A hungry heart feeds on lies too so be careful. LOL
I still have my jar of cheese, still fresh… which am trying to find a fun way of using it. Any suggestions.. ??
In the meantime, peanut butter sandwich it is!!!
When we have this order in life, then why complain? There are so many other entries to key things to add to the above check list but these are the ones that top the list. Though all of them collectively equal to BLESSED!!!
Yesterday my son and I went to the supermarket to get a gift to our good friend. So we paid and went ahead to have our special gift wrapped. So we find this talkative guy who greeted us and the next thing that he said shocked me!!
Him: instead of wrapping gifts I should be finishing my degree…
Me: (touched and uttering a silent prayer) oh..
Him: it’s true, my friends are busy studying and here I am…. Doing long hours and poor working conditions…
Me: What about life!?
Me: at least you’re doing something noble and saving up. There are some who are in a morgue right?
Him:true madam. I hadn’t thought about that really. I guess I should just be thankful huh?
Me: now that’s the spirit!! We human focus on what is going wrong in our life instead of the obvious positive that we have daily.
So he engaged my son and they team worked into wrapping the gift together. So I told him to keep his dream alive….(that of going back to campus)…
That’s the way of life. As hard as it is…the best thing to do is to learn contentment in our lives. Be thankful for what we have.
I got this:
“Most of what worries us today has absolutely nothing to do with today. – If you worry too much about what might be or what might have been, you will ignore and totally miss what is. Worry is the greatest opposition to the present moment. It does nothing but steal your joy and keep you incredibly busy doing absolutely nothing worthwhile at all….!”
So we thanked each other as I also learnt something from him. He told my son, “always strive to help out your mama okay young man?…now help your mama carry this gift and have fun at the party!!”
How cool is that???
Alive? Healthy? Blessed?? Say thank You!!
So many lessons but are we learning????
Of cos I do. I enjoy my company a lot.
Someone once asked me… I was shocked. I mean why not? It’s encouraged to take yourself to a place you enjoy and just be. You can have a book. Music. Or just look around.
Life gets intense. Uncertain. And super fast.
It’s easy to loose yourself in the daily grind. And that’s not a GOOD place to be at. It sometimes feels like you loose your mind and as a “search team” is out there looking for it….for me it’s time out alone to find this mind. Lol
Take time to reconnect with yourself once in a while. Recharge your batteries. It’s therapy.
There are so much we desire to do and hope to be. Open hearted. Awake. A desire to live a great life. To be connected emotionally. Personally. Spiritually.
When the pressures multiply then we become edgy and loose all the above… We are more like battery operated machines. Doing routines……Things we can do with our eyes closed.
So why not take time off…for you??
“living in the pink” is the book am currently reading. It’s an awesome book. And while I sip my lemonade.( it’s been super hot)…and turn the pages of this book… I touch base with my spirituality…. It’s one of those aspects we tend to loose focus on when the hussle gets real…sadly!!
So if you see me alone a book, headphones, coffee/tea/cake on the table…seated somewhere…, then am just doing myself a huge favor by treating myself to some “myself time”…lol
For some it’s an out of town stay, gym day, spa day… Whatever you fancy go for it!!
“If you are looking for that one person who can change your life, take a look in the mirror…..!”