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You Matter…

“Treat people like mirrors & watch how you reflect in their eyes…!”
A sweet lady I know just sent me this text as I was getting myself ready to scratch this writing itch that has persisted. I journal everyday alright, but that’s different…
This is to tell you that God is Timely, Never doubt that people! I needed that text today…
Monday was a drag! To say the least. But I survived it. That’s why I wanted this therapy. Writing is my Escape. 
Today holds a better promise plus I’m feeling amazing. I am oozing positivity. So let’s indulge in it!
Instead of focusing on making ends meet, which is okay. Let’s live. Now! 
Here is how I am doing it: 
1: Pauline Don’t rush

I am focused on not trying to tackle everything at once. One thing at a time. One emotion at a time. One moment at a time. One day at a time. To Breathe!
2: Put off/ brush off Negativity 

I am an ambassador of this one. Ha! ha! Someone made me so mad the other day, I was shaking with fury. Literally shaking…Lord have Mercy! I decided consciously to move away from that moment, from that environment and literally sort some air, to breathe…this helped a lot. And while I’m yet to attend to that party..one that I have to sort…I choose to not dwell on it. Quiet time is mandatory to sort through your emotions. Whether they’re raging or not. 
3: Get emotions out

At times life takes you to breaking points. You wanna scream, cry, beat your chest, call out profanities.. It helps. 

Sort through the emotions I say. Handle the emotions nonetheless. Don’t shy away. 

Get in lots of positive vibes. The negative won’t have room. 
4: My Value… My Worth

How much are you worth? Ha! Ha!

Rate yourself as high as you can. I am and I try to be authentic( it’s a lifelong journey), nourish yourself, feed your soul with all the good stuff, trust your journey, be fab. You matter.
5: Just one Me: 

I am becoming the best version of who I am meant to be. Mentally. Emotionally. Physically. But I want more money( ๐Ÿ’ฏโœ”๏ธ๐Ÿ˜น๐Ÿ˜น). I am more wholistic in my approach to life. I cherish what I have in the present moment. I am lucky. I realized that my enjoyment of something doubles if I realize just how lucky I am to have it. So cheers to Life. Cheers Pauline. 
6: The Good

Ha!

When you get somethings right, you enjoy so many aspects of life….God. Love. Motherhood. Family. Work. The positive power of Friendships. Food. Etc
I still need more of Sand in my feet and wine in my hands. Vacation. Vacation. 
7: Goals

My goal today is to take yesterday to another level and tomorrow to soar high. But to ultimately sparkle today….go Higher, be better, be more positive, have lots of fun!
8: Quality/ Quantity

The Quality of moments lived is awesome when you maximize on them. No matter how much time you’ve got. Be meaningful. Connect with your moment. 
And so I am smiling because I am feeling good. My itch is scratched. My coffee needs a refill, but I am content. My heart is feeling settled. It’s beating for it’s purpose. I am alive in this moment. I am thankful. 
Ps: You are powerful, prove it to yourself. ๐Ÿ˜Š

  

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Acknowledge Yourself…

“Be a good person but don’t waste your time proving it…!”
That’s a fact!!!
Why do we waste out time proving who we are to people who least deserve it? I know for a fact that if someone doesn’t butter your bread or impact your life in any way, they don’t deserve any occupancy in your thoughts. So don’t rent it to them!!! Some people walk around thinking of ways to make some people notice just how good of a person they are… Or they truly want to share their world with that/those people. But why???
With time and as you age(lol), you learn that of all things (among many) that one can do….proving your worth is something you cannot do to some people. 
If you know you are doing things right,,,,treating people like they matter, giving the best version of yourself…then don’t wait for acknowledgment…so long as you’re happy being you…do it and don’t fret!!!
But if you are busy impressing people, then you’re in for a downfall….

Learn to acknowledge who you TRULY are….your worth….your ALL….look inside you….coz sometimes even a mirror hides…!!!
DON’T Sit and wait to be acknowledged and bore people with the need and want to be seen. Be rather invisible in this busy world….do what you can do and do it well.   
Walk away satisfied. 
Ofcos gratitude goes along way. When we are acknowledged we carry it with us and do far much greater things….
All in all, remember that you matter and especially to yourself. 
Be authentic!!!

  

  

The Here and Now….

Days fly by so fast. So so so fast. At times you can’t catch up. Other times you are at per…..In the moment….
You go through life expecting things to happen for you. Doing what everyone expect of you, tucking your happiness under your pillow when you make your bed in the morning on some days and on other days letting things go and focusing on the now. At times you don’t take charge of your life…You at times decide to just be…
I am ๐Ÿ’ฏ% responsible for my life. I am my choices. I am in charge. I just need to remember that. Always.
I could give me more credit for my talents and abilities. I could do with more belief in self and confidence. This is always a work in progress in all of us….
The weekend felt awesome and it proceeded to make Monday feel like an additional day in the weekend. You laugh so hard you wanna cry or you actually do. These moments don’t happen everyday but they happen. Special moments. Bonding with family and friends….
I only got one shot in life. This is it. It’s a great gift. I mean why should I not enjoy everything that it has to offer? We can’t turn back the hands of time and do things over again. Nope. You just can’t!!
You have to venture out. Into the unknown. With faith. Belief in self. Smiles. Laughter. Tears. Heartbreak. Highs. Lows. All of it. 
Just know how to react to the situations. 
Remember: God opens millions of flowers without forcing the buds. Reminding us not to force anything…for things happen perfectly in time…
Stay Zen!!
  
 

Dear Diary (Part One)..

It’s always good to write down stuff as it’s a form of therapy. So I went ahead and looked up some of my entries of last year. Writing is indeed awesome. Try it. Thank me later.
Simple things in Life with Immense positive effects…


20/06/2016:
“Faced with awkward moments can stir you up in the wrong way…it can linger if you allow it…”

I wonder what was happening. But it was a cold day. Evidently, I did not let it freeze me or my thoughts. I warmed it up….warm Thoughts, a book and a Mocha…oh Yum!!!


23/06/2016
: I know that if I try to take on much, I can find a way to make excuses…so I make my daily goals Tiny..

Maybe life isn’t about avoiding the Bruises. Maybe it’s about collecting the scars to prove we showed up for it…
What a day that was huh!!?


25/06/2016:
Keep Learning and expanding. Life is a continuous learning experience. Take time to embrace the Surroundings. Be Thankful for what you have!!

Basically I was reminding myself of the simplicity of life (if we make it simple that is) and just being Thankful for life.

23/10/2016: Wow, I must have been writing  elsewhere. Lol  This Was quite a break!!

I quoted C. S. Lewis, “Friendship is necessary, Like Philosophy…like Art…it has no survival Value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival…..I hear you Lewis!!!

25/10/2016: Practice the art of being all there: give your time, touch, pat on the shoulder…be all there: give! give! give! Make effort!!!!

Uh huh…this was a heart to heart with myself. But basically, in the day to day living and interactions with people who matter you have to be all there!!


26/10/2016
: Hebrews 13:5 “Never will I leave you, Never will I forsake You!”

How often do you write? Does it work for you?
It should!!! Reallyโ—๏ธ

Lemmi just add a quote, “everything of Value has a Foundation!”

Quotable Quotes…

Stop being on auto-pilot, Put yourself first, 

Recognize yourself, 

Stop pleasing other people,

or chasing some version of success that doesn’t resonate with you,

No need to numb it out with food, shopping, booze, TV, or other distractions,

Stop being worn down, beat up, stressed out, and completely depleted…. 
Wake Up

Live Intentionally!!! 

 

Quotable Quotes….

Do everything with a mind that lets go. Do not expect any praise or reward.

If you let go a little, you will have a LITTLE Peace.

If you let go a lot, you will have a LOT of peace.

If you let go completely, you will know COMPLETE peace and freedom.

Your struggles with the world will have come to an end….

~Ajahn Chah

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Music Heals….

…….”๐ŸŽถ…I hear Jerusalem bells a-ringing

Roman cavalry choirs are singing

Be my mirror, my sword and shield

My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can’t explain

I know St. Peter won’t call my name

Never an honest word

But that was when I ruled the world….๐ŸŽถ๐ŸŽค….

Viva la Vida…Cold Play Baby….

This music mix was happening around mid-morning…

Friday. Friday….

I woke up feeling dusty, tired, my neck was aching, I could use a reason for feeling this way but I guess it’s just one of those mornings. You wish you were waking up to find yourself in a stay-cation somewhere. The sounds of birds, the river, the trees and their whispering…but reality check……work awaits darling!!!

So coincidentally, I had put aside my blue pants…so much for feeling blue huh???
I did not even exercise..I should have…Those endorphins would’ve done me good.

Went to the bus…logged into social media( I avoid this in the morning)…but was looking for a pick-me-up I guess…

My phone went off and I logged into the world of Nicholas Spark’s True Believer…still no Sparks!!!

Then I just closed my eyes and extended my sleep…๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ‘€!

I get to work and do my coffee ( what a miracle worker)…and listen to Ted Talks…(get into this habit)…it’s good for you!!

What did it though apart from a call from a friend and seeing a long lost friend was music. Oh Music…

…๐ŸŽถ…for some reason I can’t explain …๐ŸŽถ…

Soft rock mix!!

“One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain. …” Bob Marley!!

The magic brought an upbeat to my walk. And my face lit. As I worked I bobbed my head and sang along.

As I write this, I don’t feel bad about my blue pants( blue is my favorite color after all), my mood is light and am not feeling dusty. I might have to do something about my neck but am okay. Am smiling and am shining. And the music playing on radio is just super super amazing.

Thanking God it’s Friday๐Ÿ˜œ!!

Scattered Thoughts (being Human)..


I was sulking and I did not quite realize…..as usual my thoughts were scattered….so many things to think about..

Is it even remotely possible to run from your own thoughts sometimes?.,

Maybe I just needed a holiday or my choice of music wasn’t quite up-beat. Nonetheless I needed to scribble something down…that itch that needs to be scratched..

It’s okay to feel unmotivated sometimes. We cannot have it all together….no one has it all together….and this is a FACT!!

There are times when you try to focus on something but no-matter how hard you try, if you’re not motivated it can’t happen the way you want it.

How many times do you start to write or read or plan to cook a meal from a recipe you saw on All-Recipe and halfway thru you feel so done..? A disconnect somehow happens..

Motivation somehow has a way of escaping us. True or false!?

Then at times it’s killed by obstacles that present themselves when they are least expected.

Last Sunday I wanted to bake cinnamon banana loaf. I was so ready. After church and feeling so light.. Blessed and hunger driven…I went ahead and added some things from the shop that I needed for the bake..
I got home and a black out decided to happen. I grrrrr-Ed, whoosa-ad, ate my lunch and dozed off…with my baking motivation killed…… but at least I had a long nap…

This is what I was telling you when I told you earlier that my thoughts were scattered….

My thoughts were on holiday. Motivation. Banana loaves. Soaking up the sun. Sunday naps. Blessings. Hunger…(.it’s a long list๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚)!

All in all. I love that am human enough to know that I cannot have it all together. I work towards it, but marvel in the lessons I learn from the obstacles that life presents. It’s with overcoming these obstacles that I have managed to continually gain strength as I journey on in life.

Let’s human๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜Š!!

Hello….


Hello, how are you…?

No am not writing down Adele’s song, but I would want to you to feel the realness of the simple statement esp. when she starts it off..

From this side though.., where it’s more of a disregarded formality, I would like us to take a small trip into ‘how we are!’

When was the last time you met someone who asked you how you really are? And really meant it?

I can raise my hand and say with all honesty that It’s become a rare thing.

Life has moved so fast for some of us to catch up so much so that some people don’t care anymore.

They want you to know their frustrations and predicaments.

People are squeezed into corners of the ‘me’ syndrome. Some unknowingly… Some because they are just self centered…

I want to tell you am sorry if personally I forget to ask how you really are if we ever meet and the world seems to be all in about to ball out.

Not to say that as an excuse. No. No. No.

It’s merely an observation. A keen one at that.

I met a pal sometime back and to be honest they did not bother to ask how I was. It feels off to me. Esp if you care enough to actually wanna know…

And so it boils down to listening and being heard. Of which it’s a day to day thing that we forget๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜ฉ…(let’s learn and master the art of listening people…)

It’s human to have the pressures in life. It’s selfish to think it’s all about you and how you feel. And what revolves around you.

Take time to ask, hello, how are you and actually mean it!! Coz most often this is answered by ….’how about you!?’

After TRULY getting thru the greetings then we can tell if we are ready to share all we have bottled inside or if the energy can match ours.

I stand to be corrected though. People feel differently about different things. But before going on to tell someone you’ve met with so much, it’s okay and wise to know just how they are…

As Adele’s song fades in the background of my memory with her ever so amazing song I say my hello to you….!

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