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Future Self…

Dear future Pauline,
It’s 19:55pm on the tenth day of 2017, October. You’re heading home after a rather hot day. Work was good. You’re listening to Goo Goo Dolls and loving it. 
You’re in your early thirties and you’re going to ask yourself questions more often than not. Questions like, if I made different choices in life will I be here in this moment? 

And if I chose different, would it be a better moment or good or best? 

Would I be a better parent? 

A better friend? 

Or daughter? 

You’re going to wonder why people never follow script 😂😂💦. 
But one thing that will quiet your busy mind is the fact that you’ll be grateful for what you have:

Life. 

Health. 

Motherhood. 

Friendships. 

A job. 

Shelter. 

Food. 

And you’ll find that that list of gratitude will always grow.

You will work hard to keep healthy habits.

You’ll cherish the people who matter to you and you will take care of them wholeheartedly. 

Many things will break your heart but you will rise above because of your ability to take the lessons and learn from them. 

You will try and find positivity wherever it exists. 

You will be guarded but open to those people who show you that they’re worthy. You will break. 

You will be broken. 

You will laugh. 

You will love. 

You will sing. 

You will dance. 

You will embrace the days as they come. Because mastering the art of loving yourself wasn’t an easy path. 

And with each new chapter that life will present to you, you will know that you’re the author. You hold the pen.  

You will aim to write a story that will be engraved in many hearts. 

The bad news is that time flies. The good news is, I’m the pilot!!
It’s 20:10pm and I feel good having written. I’m almost reaching home. The commute wasn’t that bad. It’s a good evening. 
Let’s see what the next moment brings. 
  

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Remembering Papa..

  
Minutes turned into hours, hours into days, days into months, months into years….two to be exact since wings were officially fixed on you and you found your way to heaven and now dancing with the other angels. It’s never easy at all, it never has been and it never will. I wish we are prepped long before when someone leaves just how to live without them. Maybe it will make it easy. 

As we go on day after day, we cherish the memories and enjoy the time God gave us with you. I keep thinking about you even if it pains…..

There are so many things that we need you to see. Words are inadequate…..

Dad….How ironic is it that people waste moments not listening to or paying much attention to people when they are alive?… But when they are not there, We live yearning for those moments? Life is Tricky at times. 

Hard lessons are instilled into us..that you should cherish people who matter in your life. To Find time….Not excuses!!

I want to assure you that in as much as life has it’s twists and turns, we are trying our level best in our èndevours. 

In The curve balls that life throws at us, we put our trust in God and somehow we pull through. 

My consolation is that I always know that you are smiling down on us. 

And as we continue to celebrate your life, we Thank God that He made you for us. 


Dance Papa. Dance. 

  

The Here and Now….

Days fly by so fast. So so so fast. At times you can’t catch up. Other times you are at per…..In the moment….
You go through life expecting things to happen for you. Doing what everyone expect of you, tucking your happiness under your pillow when you make your bed in the morning on some days and on other days letting things go and focusing on the now. At times you don’t take charge of your life…You at times decide to just be…
I am 💯% responsible for my life. I am my choices. I am in charge. I just need to remember that. Always.
I could give me more credit for my talents and abilities. I could do with more belief in self and confidence. This is always a work in progress in all of us….
The weekend felt awesome and it proceeded to make Monday feel like an additional day in the weekend. You laugh so hard you wanna cry or you actually do. These moments don’t happen everyday but they happen. Special moments. Bonding with family and friends….
I only got one shot in life. This is it. It’s a great gift. I mean why should I not enjoy everything that it has to offer? We can’t turn back the hands of time and do things over again. Nope. You just can’t!!
You have to venture out. Into the unknown. With faith. Belief in self. Smiles. Laughter. Tears. Heartbreak. Highs. Lows. All of it. 
Just know how to react to the situations. 
Remember: God opens millions of flowers without forcing the buds. Reminding us not to force anything…for things happen perfectly in time…
Stay Zen!!
  
 

Wisdom Galore…

I don’t take for granted all the wisdom and inspiration I get from some of the people I meet in life. While others call you names and talk ill of you, others are there to encourage you and urge you on.

With permission from one of my elderly friends, lemmi talk about why we should not sit and whine…

She is turning 75 very soon and she is as active as a 30 year old. She does what many people won’t do even in their 20’s.

She drives very long distances, she has a beautiful garden with all these wonderful herbs and vegetables (she waters her garden). She does field work as well as office work.

In all the years I have known her, she has broken her back thrice, her ankle, her wrist, shoulder and knee surgeries. (How can one body take all that?). I ask her how she does it. We laugh about it so much. Then recently she was told she had cancer of the stomach, it broke my heart but then after tests and a major surgery to remove part of her stomach, she was told it would not spread….whoop whoop!!!!

All this time, she was doing volunteer canceling at the hospital and also some beautiful embroidery.

When she was discharged she was up and about and back to what she does best….HELPING PEOPLE….CHEERFULLY!!

When she speaks, I listen and listen….
…So I told her she needs to encourage all the young people who give up after they face challenges….She does it (encouragement) so easily. One thing she encouraged me to always do is to PRAY. To Do what I can with the time that I have been given. 🙆
Honestly, she oozes wisdom and just by looking at her you can be challenged to up your game. She always walks fast and when she is walking slowly, she is in quiet mode in prayer.

Lessons learnt:

1. draw my inspiration from people who take time to also value others and themselves.

2: Age is not a limit. You are your own limit.

3: Enjoy what you do!!

4: Friendship is not about age. It’s about those people who tag your heart in a good way.

5: Laughter is indeed medicine. Trust me!!

6: Exercise by reaching out to help those around you.

I am rich in my heart. I look forward to draw wisdom from the experiences I encounter and people I meet and places I go to and from the days as they come.

Stay Wise😎!!

Dear Diary (Part One)..

It’s always good to write down stuff as it’s a form of therapy. So I went ahead and looked up some of my entries of last year. Writing is indeed awesome. Try it. Thank me later.
Simple things in Life with Immense positive effects…


20/06/2016:
“Faced with awkward moments can stir you up in the wrong way…it can linger if you allow it…”

I wonder what was happening. But it was a cold day. Evidently, I did not let it freeze me or my thoughts. I warmed it up….warm Thoughts, a book and a Mocha…oh Yum!!!


23/06/2016
: I know that if I try to take on much, I can find a way to make excuses…so I make my daily goals Tiny..

Maybe life isn’t about avoiding the Bruises. Maybe it’s about collecting the scars to prove we showed up for it…
What a day that was huh!!?


25/06/2016:
Keep Learning and expanding. Life is a continuous learning experience. Take time to embrace the Surroundings. Be Thankful for what you have!!

Basically I was reminding myself of the simplicity of life (if we make it simple that is) and just being Thankful for life.

23/10/2016: Wow, I must have been writing  elsewhere. Lol  This Was quite a break!!

I quoted C. S. Lewis, “Friendship is necessary, Like Philosophy…like Art…it has no survival Value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival…..I hear you Lewis!!!

25/10/2016: Practice the art of being all there: give your time, touch, pat on the shoulder…be all there: give! give! give! Make effort!!!!

Uh huh…this was a heart to heart with myself. But basically, in the day to day living and interactions with people who matter you have to be all there!!


26/10/2016
: Hebrews 13:5 “Never will I leave you, Never will I forsake You!”

How often do you write? Does it work for you?
It should!!! Really❗️

Lemmi just add a quote, “everything of Value has a Foundation!”

The List….✨

I told myself to pick something random to do. Anything that will help in this journey of authenticity. So I took a book and wrote down three things that I want to carry into the year ahead…

To smile!
To Breathe!
To shake it off!

Reflections of the year gone by are oh so mighty….Oh boy what a year!!!It feels like a blink of an eye. Working too hard. So much to do. So little time. Too many emotions. Too many changes. Leaps. Dips. Bounds. The works… An attitude of gratitude and thanksgiving for the year that has been is all I have….WHOA!!!

SMILE:Smiling moments have been many. But the moment that crowns it all is smiling because God has got my back no matter what. And many many tiny wow (in a good way) moments…engraved in my heart!!

BREATH: It’s inevitable at times…to find yourself holding your breath because you allow yourself to be consumed in what the tough and rough times offer….as it’s human and universal…take time and breath…just whoosa as much as you can. Through Disappointments…breathe! Through Expectations…breathe! Anger…..breath! Tiredness….breath!!

SHAKE IT OFF:You ever found yourself in a situation where so much is expected of you and you give it your all and somehow it’s never enough? Yeah, I know you know what am talking about…well, honey, don’t stress…just SHAKE IT OFF!! There is only so much we can possibly do. Situations, people, some days will always want more from you. Don’t kill yourself trying to fit in.SHAKE IT …….OOOF!!!

So I sat and looked at my list and thought how simple yet at times hard to do these things. Really!!! But I will carry this through.

As a human, given a plain white piece of paper with a single black dot placed randomly within the paper…we tend to focus on the black dot missing out on all the white and we just end up feeling stuck up, bitter…etc…

But life is an adventure….the real adventure is the life we share with the people we have along the way. The adventure of a lifetime is always right in front of us….it’s cleverly disguised as a familiar face.

There is always a million pick me ups along the journey. Let’s focus on the white. The positive vibes. The familiar faces that care. The moments that make your heart smile. Let the hard times shape and STRENGTHEN you, don’t let them bring you down.

SO SMILE. BREATHE. SHAKE IT OFF!!!

A brand new year AWAITS!!

WhoopWhoop😜!!

Scattered Thoughts (being Human)..


I was sulking and I did not quite realize…..as usual my thoughts were scattered….so many things to think about..

Is it even remotely possible to run from your own thoughts sometimes?.,

Maybe I just needed a holiday or my choice of music wasn’t quite up-beat. Nonetheless I needed to scribble something down…that itch that needs to be scratched..

It’s okay to feel unmotivated sometimes. We cannot have it all together….no one has it all together….and this is a FACT!!

There are times when you try to focus on something but no-matter how hard you try, if you’re not motivated it can’t happen the way you want it.

How many times do you start to write or read or plan to cook a meal from a recipe you saw on All-Recipe and halfway thru you feel so done..? A disconnect somehow happens..

Motivation somehow has a way of escaping us. True or false!?

Then at times it’s killed by obstacles that present themselves when they are least expected.

Last Sunday I wanted to bake cinnamon banana loaf. I was so ready. After church and feeling so light.. Blessed and hunger driven…I went ahead and added some things from the shop that I needed for the bake..
I got home and a black out decided to happen. I grrrrr-Ed, whoosa-ad, ate my lunch and dozed off…with my baking motivation killed…… but at least I had a long nap…

This is what I was telling you when I told you earlier that my thoughts were scattered….

My thoughts were on holiday. Motivation. Banana loaves. Soaking up the sun. Sunday naps. Blessings. Hunger…(.it’s a long list😂😂)!

All in all. I love that am human enough to know that I cannot have it all together. I work towards it, but marvel in the lessons I learn from the obstacles that life presents. It’s with overcoming these obstacles that I have managed to continually gain strength as I journey on in life.

Let’s human😂😂😊!!

Joy in the Morning..


Aha!!

This was not a moment to behold. I was bewildered. I was feeling like a ticking time bomb. The explosion was about to happen anytime…. I was one moment tossing…. Another moment Pacing….another moment almost kicking my feet in the air.

Rambling thoughts. Emotions. Pain…..

I got misty eyed….no…scratch misty eyes..I was almost wailing…

Toothache!!

That night I could do anything to ease the pain I was in. I took a shower..I had green tea(don’t ask)…I took a high dose of painkillers…my son kissed my cheek..my brother played me soft rock…since my mom was home, she massaged ointment on my cheek…and also Iced my swollen cheek. I was looking like I had just come from a boxing match and had lost( knockout)…LOL…. .NOTHING….NOTHING was working… I totally blame the devil!!
Somehow all these remedies decided to collaborate with each other and sleep came.

“Weeping may endure for the night….but Joy comes in the morning..” True. True. True. I now properly get the meaning of that statement. I looked at myself in the morning and started laughing. And the funniest thing is that when I looked outside, the sun coming out was the most beautiful sight…let’s just say an Aha moment…a sight to behold…..

It made me think of the saying,.. that there’s always sunshine after the storm…hahaha!!
Now that my stormy night was in the past, I focused on my morning and it’s beauty with my Cheek swollen and pain free,I could afford positive vibes.

It got me thinking how in life we tend to focus on the pain forgetting that it’s always preparing us and shaping us to welcome the warmth and beauty of life. For we can not have everything that easy. That if we endure pain, as long as we are willing to go through with it….we emerge strong and victorious.

The toothache in your life will only last during the night. A bright morning is coming. Hang in there buddy!!!

Why Worry…?


Alive✔️

Healthy✔️

Blessed✔️

When we have this order in life, then why complain? There are so many other entries to key things to add to the above check list but these are the ones that top the list. Though all of them collectively equal to BLESSED!!!

Yesterday my son and I went to the supermarket to get a gift to our good friend. So we paid and went ahead to have our special gift wrapped. So we find this talkative guy who greeted us and the next thing that he said shocked me!!

Him: instead of wrapping gifts I should be finishing my degree…
Me: (touched and uttering a silent prayer) oh..
Him: it’s true, my friends are busy studying and here I am…. Doing long hours and poor working conditions…
Me: What about life!?
Him: (shocked)
Me: at least you’re doing something noble and saving up. There are some who are in a morgue right?
Him:true madam. I hadn’t thought about that really. I guess I should just be thankful huh?
Me: now that’s the spirit!! We human focus on what is going wrong in our life instead of the obvious positive that we have daily.
So he engaged my son and they team worked into wrapping the gift together. So I told him to keep his dream alive….(that of going back to campus)…
That’s the way of life. As hard as it is…the best thing to do is to learn contentment in our lives. Be thankful for what we have.

I got this:

“Most of what worries us today has absolutely nothing to do with today. – If you worry too much about what might be or what might have been, you will ignore and totally miss what is. Worry is the greatest opposition to the present moment. It does nothing but steal your joy and keep you incredibly busy doing absolutely nothing worthwhile at all….!”
So we thanked each other as I also learnt something from him. He told my son, “always strive to help out your mama okay young man?…now help your mama carry this gift and have fun at the party!!”

How cool is that???

Alive? Healthy? Blessed?? Say thank You!!

So many lessons but are we learning????

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